Hey, it's Jessica. Today is a snow day so I'm out of school, and this post was going to come out sooner or later.
I just want to say that looking at all the adorable families my cousins, aunts, etc. have makes me want my own family SO badly!!! I'm probably being selfish and spending too much time fussing over this, but I am really not liking being patient at the moment.
Maybe I'm just feeling like this because there will be five new baby cousins in my extended family this year, and also probably because my cousin and best friend on my mom's side, Brittany, is getting married in April. Oh don't get me wrong, I'm totally thrilled for Brittany, and all of you who are in the throws of motherhood.
I just really want to be older, married, having babies... the ultimate goal I suppose. I guess I'm just really being selfish right now more than anything. So, I apologize.
Is this normal though? Did any of you feel impatient to grow up when you were a teenager? Am I being crazy??? I just get this incredibly intense desire to have a baby of my own whenever I see pictures of you mommies holding your infants. Do I need advice? Should I even share this with all of you?
I know that I need to enjoy being a teenager and being in High School. It's not that I don't enjoy this time of my life. I just don't care about the normal things most girls my age get so caught up in. I could care less if I don't have a super-expensive designer purse, or if I don't get a date to a dance. I don't like flipping through fashion magazines that tell me what I need to be happy. I know that happiness comes from doing what Heavenly Father wants me to do, and He definitely wants me to be sealed in the temple someday and to have children. I'm just really not loving the whole waiting/growing process before that day.
Sorry, I'm sure none of you have the time to read all this. But if you have any words of wisdom, I'm all ears!!! :)