Hey, it's Jessica. Today is a snow day so I'm out of school, and this post was going to come out sooner or later.
I just want to say that looking at all the adorable families my cousins, aunts, etc. have makes me want my own family SO badly!!! I'm probably being selfish and spending too much time fussing over this, but I am really not liking being patient at the moment.
Maybe I'm just feeling like this because there will be five new baby cousins in my extended family this year, and also probably because my cousin and best friend on my mom's side, Brittany, is getting married in April. Oh don't get me wrong, I'm totally thrilled for Brittany, and all of you who are in the throws of motherhood.
I just really want to be older, married, having babies... the ultimate goal I suppose. I guess I'm just really being selfish right now more than anything. So, I apologize.
Is this normal though? Did any of you feel impatient to grow up when you were a teenager? Am I being crazy??? I just get this incredibly intense desire to have a baby of my own whenever I see pictures of you mommies holding your infants. Do I need advice? Should I even share this with all of you?
I know that I need to enjoy being a teenager and being in High School. It's not that I don't enjoy this time of my life. I just don't care about the normal things most girls my age get so caught up in. I could care less if I don't have a super-expensive designer purse, or if I don't get a date to a dance. I don't like flipping through fashion magazines that tell me what I need to be happy. I know that happiness comes from doing what Heavenly Father wants me to do, and He definitely wants me to be sealed in the temple someday and to have children. I'm just really not loving the whole waiting/growing process before that day.
Sorry, I'm sure none of you have the time to read all this. But if you have any words of wisdom, I'm all ears!!! :)
5 comments:
my first thoughts are she is so much wiser and better than i was then. my second thoughts are the lord has given you these desires to set you on the right path. they're normal and because you're more in tune than most you feel them and your less scared to admit them because you know their source. i think all girls feel them. my only advice is what you already know...be patient, work on what you can, and seriously seriously try to enjoy every thing you have. hope to see you soon!
Hey Jessica, It was nice to read your post. I liked the honesty and it made me smile because we have all been there! I was the same way. I thought girls my age were silly and had no substance. Marriage and motherhood will come your way when the time is right. The Lord will provide. I have advice and please take it or leave it....when I was your age I filled the "baby void" with lots of babysitting. It was a good way to nurture and feel fulfilled but I could still be a kid and focus on the things that would someday make a be a good wife and mother. For example seminary, school, church callings, YM/Personal progress, I had lots activities 4-H, painting,
gardening, the list could go on and on! Later I served a mission which has been so valuable in my callings and as a mother. It's funny most of my church friends were married at 19....I felt so "old" going on a mission at (gulp) 21.... in hindsight I was just a kid! I'm grateful that I heeded the Lord's promptings and enjoyed each phase of life. There is a reason we start off in Nursery and kindergarten--we need the basics for better choices and proper application later in life. Funny enough ALL of my friends that married early and had babies right away have told me they wish they would have taken those steps a little slower been a little choosier on spouses. Not to mention that those friends now have teenagers--which makes them feel old. Sorry this is getting long. Anyway, Brandon and I both think you are a lovely young lady and will be a FABULOUS WIFE and MOTHER some day! We had no worries leaving our baby Ryan with you even though you were young at the time. We have always felt that you were a very capable person. You will "know" when the time is right for you. Stay close to Heavenly Father he will lead and guide you. But when you do take the marriage plunge we had better get in invite!(I'm dying to see Tennessee)
There was a conference talk this last Oct. given by President Monson it was excellent-- when you get the chance you should study it. Here is the link :
http://lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,23-1-947-26,00.html
Best of luck to you!
Love, The Mitchell's Brandon, Angela,Ryan,&Baby Evan...( who still gets me up at night at 8 months!) Enjoy your sleep now. :)
I loved your post. Many days I'm not so sure being a mom is appreciated, or I get all stressed that I am not doing enough good for my children and family. It was good reading your excitement about this future stage in life. It helped me remember to appreciate, especially this stage when I have young ones who don't listen, cry over toys or snacks, don't eat anyhing I make for them, my hubby never gets home when he is supposed to, so yesterday our steamed cauliflower was complete MUSH! All these things are just minor but they make a long day sometimes. If only it could all be holding happy content babies all day it would be bliss.
Enjoy the now, have fun and develop skills which will help you not only be the best mother you can, but also will give you skills and talents which will keep you entertained during the tough days of motherhood.
You seem to know what you want, just put in place a plan on how you will get to that place. I really had some good friends and fun in high school and I wouldn't trade that time. I know sometimes teen life is hard, so many people... so way off of what is important... so I can see how someone like you who has a good understanding of what is important would have a hard time. Just know that even if you don't have certain lessons to learn, your example will play a huge part in those around you. And, while you know a lot, the experiences in the next few years will really help you to be a better and more understanding parent and leader in the church! Good luck Jess, your wonderful and we love you lots!
First of all props to mom and dad. They obviously did something right in raising. You are so grown up already! Holy cow, slow down. I just remember the cute little Jessica who played the piano. Now your talking about babies....yeah, maybe you shouldn't be blogging that quite yet...!!!! Just kidding. You are so super sweet. Miss you guys a lot. And, when it is time to get married, be picky, don't settle, your worth it!
I can remember having those same feelings when I was about your age! The thing is everyone tells you not to grow up too fast because you have your whole life ahead of you. But I know as well as you do that it just doesn't really sink in or make you feel any better about how you are feeling! The good news is that the right things are important to you. Be patient, enjoy all the youth that you can, and enjoy high school as much as you can! I wish I wouldn't have worried so much back then and been more involved! These years are preparing you for motherhood and for marriage. Some day you are going to be amazing at both but with that comes a lot of responsiblity, selflessness, and patience. Believe me, you can wait and you will make it through this time in your life! Love you! Your Aunti Di!
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