I'm Venting... sort of

Hey, it's Jessica. Today is a snow day so I'm out of school, and this post was going to come out sooner or later.
I just want to say that looking at all the adorable families my cousins, aunts, etc. have makes me want my own family SO badly!!! I'm probably being selfish and spending too much time fussing over this, but I am really not liking being patient at the moment.
Maybe I'm just feeling like this because there will be five new baby cousins in my extended family this year, and also probably because my cousin and best friend on my mom's side, Brittany, is getting married in April. Oh don't get me wrong, I'm totally thrilled for Brittany, and all of you who are in the throws of motherhood.
I just really want to be older, married, having babies... the ultimate goal I suppose. I guess I'm just really being selfish right now more than anything. So, I apologize.
Is this normal though? Did any of you feel impatient to grow up when you were a teenager? Am I being crazy??? I just get this incredibly intense desire to have a baby of my own whenever I see pictures of you mommies holding your infants. Do I need advice? Should I even share this with all of you?
I know that I need to enjoy being a teenager and being in High School. It's not that I don't enjoy this time of my life. I just don't care about the normal things most girls my age get so caught up in. I could care less if I don't have a super-expensive designer purse, or if I don't get a date to a dance. I don't like flipping through fashion magazines that tell me what I need to be happy. I know that happiness comes from doing what Heavenly Father wants me to do, and He definitely wants me to be sealed in the temple someday and to have children. I'm just really not loving the whole waiting/growing process before that day.
Sorry, I'm sure none of you have the time to read all this. But if you have any words of wisdom, I'm all ears!!! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATTHEW!!!

Matthew turned 10 on January 12th. He is such a good kid that I thought I would create a post just for him. He is having a birthday party with friends this Friday, so we really didn't do much on his birthday. We did give him lots of hugs and spanks. Actually, we took everyone to Krispy Kreme! Did you all know that they give a free donut for every "A" on your report card? Well, my kids do not let me forget this. So between, Matthew and Benjamin, we got a dozen free donuts. It was fun letting those warm, glazed donuts melt in our mouths!

This Friday we are taking Matthew and 5 friends to see a hockey game. It just so happens that on Friday night the theme for the game is "Star Wars Night!" Matthew loves anything Star Wars. The Star Wars Legion (crazed fans dressed in costumes) are going to come and interact with the crowd and put on a light saber show. The boys are so excited. I'm even excited. I'll take some pictures and post them.

We love Matthew and remember the day he arrived. He weighed 9 lbs. My biggest baby! It was a great event because he was our first boy. I remember that my epidural wore off toward the end of his delivery. He's the only baby that I really "felt" myself give birth to. WOW! I thought I was going to die. Brock looked at me and said, "you're really going to have to do this." I could have punched him. We are so blessed to have Matthew sent to us. He is a hard worker, a loyal friend, and fun to play games with. Happy 10th birthday bud!